Is There Life On My Planet

We're all looking for a life that meets our ideals. I for one have no idea how to obtain mine. All I want is a sense of happiness. Not everyone wants that to be certain. You can say everyone wants happiness but happiness isn't always what brings people.... happiness? For example, for some people I imagine it'd be money, or possessions. It's not always a sense of peacefulness and contentedness. Sometimes it's having certain things, or being with certain people that will bring that feeling for them.

I think I didn't mean to talk about that but it ended up in that direction.

I'm a 23 year old young professional with an animation degree, haha I forgot 24 pretty much as my birthday is in a few days. It's almost sad to forget your own birthday but I'm sure I'm not the first to do it. At least I always remember before and not after.
I moved from Pennsylvania to Los Angeles the moment my degree was finished, hoping for a chance at breaking into something big in a place with big hope, big dreams, but unfortunately I found with little chance or faith in the ability of those that can do the job and "make it work"( as they say on Project Runway,) but are unsure of which direction they need to go to "make it work" not only for a company, but for them. I'm incredibly discouraged, but I'm not the type to not keep trying even if I need a moment to stop and rethink things.

My friend just told me "I feel like I'm alive but it's all relative anyway."

Is there life on my planet? Personally....I feel like I'm alive, but I don't know that I'm living.

You know, I can be an incredible ass when I'm upset or hurt over something. But that will usually follow someone not listening when I tell them the issue I have with them. This speaking from past and present experience alike. I don't like being that way, but what can I do? Just let someone walk all over my emotions?
I try to be loyal and trustwrothy and stay who I am because I know who I am is a good, and honest, and true person. But when you're continually being forgotten or ignored as someone unimportant by those you are trying to care about, it makes it really hard to not grow thorns around your heart. Where is that person that is concerned about how I'm feeling, if I had a good or bad day or am feeling lonely, happy, sleepy, drunk, energetic.

The person I am, that I want to stay.

Remember, that whenever you need it, and even when you don't, I will care about you. Even if I'm hurt and broken, there will...I will, always be there for you.

Because, there IS life on my planet.