When it rains it pours

I've been applying to jobs like crazy. Not just good office jobs but store jobs too, and I just got hired by one company but the other store that I really wanted to work for now called me for an interview that I have to leave for in 30 minutes. I'm so stressed because of how much I want to work for them but my sense of loyalty and responsibility is making my stomach cramp. idk how the job I just go hired at could accept me only being available 2-3 days. wouldn't they be mad?
It's been months since I was able to find a job. but, idk what will happen so I'm going to go to the interview and see what is being offered to me and what I can take for myself. I like both the places, but idk what else can be done at this point. I'll have to see what happens.

Cougartown

Just started watching the first five minutes of cougartown. I've heard horrible things about that show but recently started hearing that it was good so I decided to start watching it. I'm about five minutes in and it's actually pretty funny so far. We'll see how I feel by the end of the first episode, but gee, who ever though that HOT middle aged rich women had it so tough!

Ghost!!!! D:(

OMG I have a ghost!! I was sleeping this morning and it felt like someone put their hand on my shoulder. I opened my eyes and turned a little and it still felt like the hand was there. But when I turned to look assuming it was my sister, there was no one there and my door was shut!!! XO omg!!!

Kourtney, Armondo, Me, & The Scorpion

I had a dream last night...Armondo was in it...I think he was a chicken and he cut off his own left food so he could try fried chicken. he gave some other creature some other kind of food for getting him the fried chicken...don't remember what it was.
And there were two scorpions and a spider. clear white spiders that were killing women and i saw one run across the floor but then saw the scorpions there and the big one had black widow markings. I was having trouble seeing below chest level in my dream and I was screaming to Kourtney to kill the scorpions and she produced a scorpion trap somehow which was really an oddly shaped cardboard tube. But it actually went into it and we trapped it! I don't remember much else but isn't that all weird enough? o_O!!!

The Interwebs

started drawing on an online chat again and omg I have no idea what the net slang is!
Luckily I found a website that with decipher it for me! www.internetslang.com
God I am so out of the loop =_=
Somebody kept typing ovo. I'm like ovo? OVO?! what the hell does that mean?!
it means obviously for those dying to know.

I Used To Dream

I used to have this recurring dream that I loved where I was just floating in the ocean. I was never sure if I was looking up at the sky or if I was floating in the sky and looking down at the sea. I wish I could have that dream again, it was the best. Although I always woke up really roughly because I would do that thing where I would dream I stopped breathing/getting oxygen and actually would IRL, or my leg would get sent one of those electrical test pulses and twitch, waking me.

Usually it would be the one where I started suffocating. To be honest I think the whole experience not just the floating feeling was why I liked it. I've always felt very at home in the water though, like I never need another breath of air again. Although of course I always do, and have to get more. ....But it's always so silent and calm.

Follow the yellow brick road

My mind feels so empty and blank the last few days. Unfocused again. It seems like all the things I really want aren't possible. The road less traveled is often way more fun, but sometimes I wish that it were like the Wizard of Oz and you could just follow the yellow brick road. But it has to be brick cause if it were a snow road covered in pee that would just be gross.

Bitter End

Gotta run and take care of a few things, but the background set I was on yesterday was was pretty fun. not at all sexist like my friend was telling me. Everyone was really nice. Looks like if the backgrounds that I'm in dont get cut you should be able to see me in the background of the bitter end bar in season 4 episode 3. :P But they probably will be cut.

I'll update more a little later but for now I gotta run!

Mad Men

So I've got my location and time for my background acting gig for "Mad Men" I hope it wont be as bad as everyone says background acting is. My friend told me he got shoved into a room with one light with a bunch of other background actors from early in the morning to 3 in the afternoon before they told them they needed them. D: God I hope that doesn't happen to me!
They told me to wear hot roll curlers in my hair but those things are like $40 which is probably just a little less that I'll make on the set. But hell I'm not spending my whole pay check on that. I already bought pantyhose. It just ain't gonna happen. In any case, I'm gonna curl my hair with a curling iron before I go, and hopefully that will be enough that they wont yell at me.

Can I write?

Should I write? probably not. Has that ever stopped me or anyone else before? Heck no!

And thus I've come to the conclusion I'm gonna write a book, cause if those people can lure the childrens with crap like twilight and potter (though granted potter wasn't bad till about the 5th or 6th book), then I should sure as shootin' be able to as well.

Thus based on current trends and my own personal preference. I've started to write a novel about super heroes. :D
God forbid I ever complete anything, but it's not the first lengthy task I've ever taken on and completed, hope to complete.

I've got the first page done, and I'm hopeful that it wont be a complete piece of trash. XD hahaha.

Shave and hair cut...

Well, I went to my costume fitting for mad men today. Got a relatively cute outfit. but if they go with the pants over the dress(which I did like better), lol they were so tiny, with a zipper on each side, that I could only zip one side and had to be like oh well the sweater hides it. XD LoL that's gonna be a fun day on the shoot. haha.
In any case they also gave me a pretty cute 60's hair cut. Except they were like all you need is pantyhose and now they're asking me to put my hair in heated curlers. fuck, I dont own those! And I think they may be expensive too. XD I'm gonna do what I can but they didn't tell me I needed those when I first took the job and they can't change it so late in the game and expect me to just magically appear with them and waste all my money on things I dont need or have money for!

But I got a lot done today other than the fitting. I also was able to renew my website subscription for my portfolio www.lightboxhero.com and to fix my student loan issues. There is apparently something where if you pay on time for 3 years they lower your interest 1% percent! :D And I was late the first payment just a bit cause it didn't say when it was due. but idk hopefully they accept my request for reinstatement.

Oh troubled life. But I'm gonna handle this shit. and Work It Out.

difficulty

I've been getting things done, but the last few nights I haven't really been able to sleep so I'm super tired, and yet again tonight feels like it's just gonna add to it.

But at least i got the location call about where to go for my fitting for mad men. I am going to be a folk woman. lmao. That word makes me think of a little old lady in a babushka XD hahahaha